Y’all do not realize these toxic relationships we be in are so hard to let go of because it’s beyond breaking up. You have to really get down on your knees and pray to God to release this soul tie, because as long as y’all souls are intertwined you’ll forever be HURT and MISERABLE. You let go of him/her physically, but are still connected to them spiritually and emotionally.
I’m young, but you name it… I been through it with my first real relationship. It took me years to disconnect from him and a billion nights crying begging God to help me get out of more than the relationship. It’s so much that I want to say and express, but I would need more than this 24 hour day.
Being 15 and in an abusive relationship did damage to my heart, my soul, my perception, my confidence, my emotions, my lifestyle and so much more. It’s still unbelievable that I’m not fully healed and I’m 23.
The craziest part about it, is that even though I knew who the person was behind my pain I continued to run back and I also craved that person. It was at that moment, I realized I needed to change my mindset and that I was mentally gone.
When your mind isn’t right you tend to fall back on comfortability. Being comfortable doesn’t mix with growth. You can’t grow in the same space or with the same people that caused the hurt and pain. On top of them being negative and also stuck in their position.
Like how the fuck am I supposed to grow holding on to a motherfucker that didn’t want to move forward with their life? If that’s the case I’m going to be stuck here with you. This is when I gotta let go completely and push through the hurt, the hate the emotions and grow through it ALONE!
To be continued…